wow its been awhile, this past week has been good,bad, happy,sad, confussing, exciting, lonely, empty, to sum it all up its been a rollercoaster. my yiaya's funeral has probably been one of the hardest things ive had to experience first hand. ive never lost anyone so close to me, its been a rough road these past couple of weeks. being at her funeral wasn't easy for me but it was nice being there with my family and friends. i got to see family i hadnt seen in awhile, i want to thank all of you guys out there that have been soo supportive with your words and cards and everything, it truly means alot.

"you are my coffee and im addicted to you..." id also like to thank this very special someone thats been a crucial part of my life this past month, he's amazing. he makes me smile when im upset, when times are tough he always tells me things will be okay, when i talk to him all my worries and stress go away, he calls me every morning to wake me up, he calls me everynight to say goodnight. he calls me during the day to hear my voice and say hello, he tells me he loves me, he cares for me, i can tell him anything and everything, he writes me little letters, he makes me cd's of songs that remind him of me, and most importantly he loves me for me, i dont ever want to loose him, i think im in love. <333

ahhh FDF is in 4 days!!!! YES!!!! i cant wait ahh im soo stoked, i wish nikos could go but its okay i get to see him VERY VERY soon!!!!

haha okay this weekend was interesting, here are a couple of quotes from friday night that will forever be remembered..."you've got BHS on your chest" "look guys i had a baby, and its blonde" random i know but you had to of been there to know what im talking about sooo great!!!!

*stephanie athena*

4days till FDF 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss you yiaya...

PLAIN WHITE T'S LYRICS

"Radios In Heaven"

Your time has already come and I don't know why
The last thing that I had heard
you were doin' just fine
It seems like just yesterday
I was laughing with you
Playing games at Grandma's house
well you taught me well, didn't you?
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up and I'll play it for you

Tell me can you hear me now
if not, then I can try to sing real loud
What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?
I hope I'm just like you
I hope I turn out to be as good as you


*stephanie athena*

10days till FDF 2005!!!

RIP yiayia - 2/6/2005

its been a very hard day for both my family and I....

dear yiayia,

may your memory be enternal, you will be greatly missed by many. i want to thank you for your unconditional love and support, thank you for all your advice through the years. im going to miss the days ive spent with you on sunday afternoons after church, im going to miss seeing you every sunday proudly sitting next to my papou in church, im going to miss our daily conversations, and im going to miss all the little funny things you would do and say to just crack a smile on my face when i was having a bad day, im going to miss your comforting hugs, but most of all im going to miss your beautiful face and soul. i am thankful i have soo many wonderful memories with you, the memories i have i will forever cherish...i miss you...

Love always and forever,

your little girl ~ stephanie athena <333

"everyday there's something new to hold onto, a little more of you..." <333

its been awhile, ive been super busy with alot of different things and i really havent felt the need to update. life has defenitely been an emotional rollercoaster this past week, mostly stuff with my yiayia. this past month ive really realized what i want from here on out in my life.  im ready for the next step, the whole highschool scene has really gotten old. dont get me wronge im enjoying my senior year, its been the best year yet and i really love and cherish my friendships that have become very strong over the past 4 years but im ready to be in the real world. im ready to make my own decisions in life, and im VERY ready to be out of the house on my own. as graduation comes closer and closer, ive become very anxious to start my own life. i think every person that has gone through highschool or is going through senior year right now knows what i mean and probably can relate. i love my parents to death, but i want freedom, im ready for college. i cant wait to get the heck out of fresno...i only have 3months till i graduate and 2 months till im 18, ill be done before i know it!!! okay soo changing subjects, im soo excited about FDF. time has FLOWN by like know other. okay so the reason why im not going to be able to make it to banquet is because i got accepted to this private school in los angeles and on that sunday and monday they have an incoming freshman orientation and i really need to go and experience all that they have to offer. and not only that but ive recieved a couple big scholarships to their school, soo i really need to look into the school and see if i at all can see myself going there next year. as of right now, my #1 is university of oregon!!!! i cant wait till i know EXACTLY where im going, ahh soo much to look forward too right now.

*stephanie athena*

12days till FDF 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"i don't know how you do what you do i'm so in love with you it just keeps getting better i want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side forever and ever, every little thing that you do baby, i'm so amazed by you..." <333 i love him....

yesterday and today have been such beautiful days, ive gone to sleep with a smile on my face and have woken up with one. the weather has been amazing, im lovin' it! im soo excited about FDF but i found out a couple days ago i may not be able to go to the banquet. i hope it all works out! i hope everyone's having a good week!!!!

*stephanie athena*

16 days till FDF 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!